Thursday, 08 November 2012
(I wrote about religion without celibacy, does this count? If not, at least I didn't blog about dog tits. YOU'RE WELCOME) 3 requests filled! Will finish the rest. I am 98% to True.
I am a Christian. I have been called not a “real” Christian because I won’t subscribe to any groupthink. I’m interested in God/truth/doing what is right, etc – I’m not really interested in conforming to perceptions people have on Christian behavior.
I have grown a lot in the last few years. I’ve had particularly a lot of trouble loving people in my personal life. Admittedly my emotions consisted of; anger, anger, hatred, revenge, anger, anger, anger. I have keyed cars, thrown coffee in them, destroyed property, & more. This was out of revenge and I felt justified at the time doing it. I had to really examine myself and study scripture to know that in no way was this what God wanted or thought was morally right. I wasn’t defending myself, I was hurting people. Just because somebody hurts me doesn’t give me the right to hurt them back.
In 2010 I ended up falling head over heels in love. I was the same crazy biotch, hell bent on revenge when someone fucked me over. Except for this time, every time I did something, it hurt the person I loved the most. I had never felt more pain in my life than when I hurt someone I loved. This time I felt the effects of revenge, of anger, and not loving someone the way God commanded us to. There is no action I did that didn’t come back and hurt me tenfold.
In November 2011 my Dad was diagnosed with cancer. I hated him for a long time and never forgave him for anything. Seeing him in the hospital sad, weak, in pain, and helpless changed that. He was formerly some menacing, scary thing to me. Now I pity him. He became human, just like me. He wasn’t an object for my hate, but a human being that was to be loved as God told us to.
I’ve learned that despite what other people do they are human beings like we are. “…for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” Romans 3:23
They aren’t worse than we are. “For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it.” James 2:10 An us vs. them mindset can be destructive and only sets ourselves up for hate. Hate isn’t productive, it begets more hate. We are all human beings/children of God and are not distinguished by bad vs. good. None of us are good, God loves us anyway. "...No one is good except God alone." Mark 10:18
So this year I’ve encountered quite a few challenges that have made me want to get revenge and correct wrongs that I had endured by people I knew. But thanks to Christ I have learned that loving people (other than loving God) is the MOST important thing to do, and if I cannot love people then my claims to love God make me a liar. “If anyone says, ‘I love God,’ yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.” 1 John 4:20 Being hateful does nothing except inspire more hate. There is nothing to accomplish from it.
I will end on some of my favorite, relevant scriptures.
The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant
21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”
22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
The Greatest Commandment
34 Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35 One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”
37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.” 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
So there is a peek into my religious life. What has God done for you?
And here atheists, have a shot for having to look at this.